I'd be dreamin if i said boys werent complicated

and you see this is what happens when boys enter your life

-dc

-jv

-mu

-dh

-np

-nl

and j you need to stop takin my seconds, because they are still mine

pretty much im choosing between d and m and im confused, very confused!!!

im pretty sure i would go for m anyday tho over d and all d wants to do is change me, bluggg

and there ya go turning my heart around again

"do u still love me as a friend?"
"what if i love you as more than a friend?"
"than you will have just made me insanely insanely happy!!!"
"i said what if"

And i have chocolate brains

You and J broke up today and i don't know what to do

I mean i've liked you for like 2 years now! and i've waited for you and J to break up for like 2 months and i can't believe its finally happened but im so happy that it has. Now i just don't know what to do, do i tell you how i feel again, do i wait till u talk to me, or do i forget you?, do i remeber how many times you hurt me?, or should i forgive and forget!

I'm not sure all i know is i miss you and when we had that extra long hug today it meant something and you know it, we only have those hugs once in a while (and i know you think im crazy oh rocketboy its just a hug, just a hug i tell you but its not. Its like we cant let go and when we do we look at each other wiht that look like we can see right through, and we now that we have missed each other and then we should be together all the time) And he was happy i ended stuff with d which im pretty happy bout to im pretty sure i just want you to realize how much i care about you, how long ive been waiting, and i want you to see how i feel! but i dont know if youll ever understand, i just wish this was easy and then theres J and N so what do i do with them if something happens with us. But your a flirt and i dunno , like a major flirt and ugghh im not sure if i can take that and im not sure if i can take your little tag alongs - lexi and dakota but whatever screw them id be with you!

and then theres boys....

Crooked

-And sometimes things don't happen how you want them to

sometimes, nothing happens how you thought it would

And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can come together-

Oh we wish you knew


My photos are crooked

My teeth are chained

You are locked into me

My shoes are tied together

My eyes are crossed

You are going crazy

My hair is piled onto the side of my head

My pants are backwards

You have no idea whats happening

My head is spinning around in circles

my clock stops ticking

I'm sort of tired of waiting for you to come around, im your g will you be mine once in awhile we like switched places. And i need you to. Its not like im loosing you im not, its not like im upset with you it just feels different. Somehow things feel different and i feel out of place i guess.

I think im fine without you

Life is beautiful

So get up and stand tall

You don't know what is going to happen next

So just take a leap, even if you fall

So get up and be strong, be brave

Even if it doesnt turn out right

Well at least you tried

For what is life without courage

So run and jump

Into a puddle of risk

11:11- you are what i wish for

i wish..

i wish i had you

i wish you understood how i feel

i wish you would leave her in the dust

i wish you would realize how much i care

i wish you knew that im the right one for you

i wish you would come back to me

i wish you would remember all our memories

i wish i could be in your arms... knowing that i am yours and you are mine

a friend in me

I know sometimes
you may not like yourself
and you don't feel
like you're worth much
and I also know
that sometimes
you put yourself down
without conscious thought
you may not feel special
and call yourself a boring person
but your mind set is completely wrong
'cause you're a special person
you don't always see
the smile you bring to my face
you don't always see
that you mean so much to me
it hurts me
when you diss yourself
and make me worry
so much
'cause you're worth a lot
a lot more than you know
so use those seventeen muscles
and give me a smile
you're one of my best friends
treat yourself kindly
'cause I can't always create my own joy
unless you help me

frozen

I sit with my feet up on the dashboard,
music bursting through me rattling my eardrums
windows rolled down just enough so I can dangle my left hand over the edge.

I can faintly hear the gusts of wind banging at my door,
sending the puddles of water on the ground into explosive ripples
and propelling crackled autumn leaves onto my car windshield.

I close my eyes and listen to the sound of the rain,
enjoying the bursts of warm air escaping the half open vents,
feeling peaceful.

For once I have nowhere to be, no deadlines to meet, no class to rush to,
and so I stay here just a little while longer while the world races on around me.

and your all i think about

(dedicated to K who is having anerxeia problems this is for you, i hope you know your beautiful and i love you---> and yes you do have ribs so look up to the world and smile)

From this point forward

I will not stand to be unhappy any longer.

I will not stand to be broken down,

broken apart,

broken-hearted.

From this point forward

my success does not depend on my waistline

and my strength does not depend on my weakness.

My biggest fear is notthe nutrition label.

From this point forward

I will not worry those who love me.

I will not look at those

with hip bones

and rib cages and be jealous.

I will not be afraid

to eat the birthday cake you made me.

I will not measure every morsel as if any more would make it poison.

From this point forward food is not my enemy

Size zero is not beautiful

and 90 pounds is not ideal.

I am no longer enslaved by my scale

and it is not an awful day when I weigh enoughto donate blood.

From this point forward

the only things coming out of my mouth will be words.

I will no longer be called

Disgraceful,

Disgusting,

Distasteful.

From this point forward

I am Inspired,

Indestructable,

Independent.

hold your head up to see the heavens

I wonder what happens when you die?
Is it a rush…
or a slow and meaningless trickle out of life?
Do you stick around to see the tears,hear the false sympathy,taste the grief?
Or do you hightail it out of there,leaving behind the mess of chaos that was your life?
I wonder what it tastes like.
Maybe like spring,new leaves and moist air
sunlight that isn't quite yet warm
Or is it dark,an empty space inside your mind
inside your heart
How do you face it?
Can you feel the whispers of family, holding you up, helping you understand?
Or are you all alone?Spiraling out of control,with no one to slow you down
say that they love you and don't want you to go

not that easy

stop your dreaming

my thought is we judge, we all do, we all do to often. we don't stop and think about it, we are all different, unique and beautiful in our own ways. i do it -- ill be walking down the hallway, down the street, or even when i look at my own family. we look at how they look, not how they feel. beauty is not skin deep, and its hard to open up and be ourselves when we live in a world, a society, a generation that doesnt support that. wake up world

black belt in heartbreak

Hello,

dear fellow boys of the world this goes out to you.

i believe god set you out here for us girls to make us go crazy, cry, laugh, but mainly to build us stronger. And damn you fools make my heart jump out of my chest at the best of time. It begins to be a puzzle each peice is a different boy and the end picture is us, what we become as we make mistakes, as our heart breaks, as we learn and grow up. My boy, well u are driving me up the wall. and even though i have you i seem like i need to keep working, building on my puzzle like you arent the peice i want. You make me happy but i could be happier. As i look around at my friends, family, and media - divorce, break-ups, mixed messages, dirty flirtation, rape/harrasment, pornography, prostitutes. then theres - healty marriages, good relationships, friendships, good messages sent out. but it always seems there are so many more wrong things going on then good. how can we change that? how can we prove good exists?

-rocketboy-

Le disko

Hello

ill write as i shove easter chocolates in my mouth.. caramilk... reese...mmmmm sweet taste of cadbury. sitting at the island of my aunts cabin lights glowing, stars shining, and only the sounds of my loud chewing. Dance competition tomorrow.. we start off with silent night ending with old mcdonalds farm disco- oh yes! I know there are disasters going on all over the world... chili, haiti...etc. but this one is a real killer do not! i repeat do not come anywhere near that place this song will knock em dead. LiTeRaLlY!! I've also come to except my mother is partially insane on the verge of becoming mentally hospitilized she is a devil beast at the best of times, but lately oh my goodness. I went on a date to how to train your dragon and well it was amazing! :D i say my toothless impression will be a real hit at parties. Aswell just finished the amazing, the oh so great book geektastic it wassss well delightful i must say. As i get to the bottom of my bag of chocolates i will sadly leave you with goodbye and goodnight.

love, rocketboy