day 13

Jill,
i used to trust you. i used to think you were so cool. in grade 6 and 7 i even looked up to you. i thought if i was as smart, pretty, atheltic and talented as her i would have the world. i use to want to be you. you were my role model in grade seven i was so jealous of you. we were sisters, i loved you like my family. and now i cant even look at you.. let alone be there for you. i feel bad that you have no friends now, i feel bad that i didnt try to fix it. but then again i look at everything, everything that you've destroyed and i really dont care that much. you deserve to have none of us. and probably if you didnt lie so much. i would be a little kinder. but you knew, you knew all along. and i understand you didnt tell lauren that would be hard... sorta like how i didnt tell her about isaac but i told you. you could have done the same. than we coulda worked it out, and i would have went with you to tell lauren. but no you decided to be terrible, and secretive. im glad you probably feel guilty still. and then when i saw you in neills sweater with him and logan. i wanted to kill you. you and your stupid short shorts, and athletic build, and your fucking butt that wins all the guys. i hate you. i hate that i used to trust you so much. and i hate that you never tryed to fix anything with you me and lauren. you just left it. being like this is the end of the world. you are terrible. and i dont have that many reasons to hate you but i do. its insane. and im sorry for hating you so much. also you cant blame being a slut on your family life.