and it's weird to admit this.
but i keep having the same reoccuring dream.
about us behind that shed.

i remember every moment.
i remember every touch.
i remember every feeling.

and i can't get it out of my head.
i don't have feelings for you. so why can't i forget this.
it didnt mean that much to me then.

it was just another touch.

just action.
but now its this same reoccuring dream. that i cant get out of my head.
i fear when i shut my eyes it will come back. and it never fails to.
and i everytime i remember when we walked out and eric shouted what is that. and you said i have no idea.
you said it so calmy like it was no big deal.

i used to think it was hot. sometimes i thought it was funny.
now im disgusted.
left with this dream. that wont leave me.